Sunday, February 27, 2011


I've been sick.  *Just* a common cold.  But man is it kicking my head.  And my lungs, but mostly my head.  The pressure oh!  My eyes burn.  The gunk in my lungs will move on breathing in, but not coughing out.  If I don't take some medicine, its near unbearable.  If I do, I feel medicated.  Not drowsy, I can handle that, but almost jittery.  But oh well, I must breathe and not feel like my eyes will explode. 

So anyway, no long post about anything in particular, just woe is me.  Time to take some NyQuil and hope to sleep better than last night.  Gotta love winter.....


Sunday, February 20, 2011

Try try again...

Yes my last post about weight loss was very.... negative.  I still believe every word.  But again, I won't give up, I can't give up, I MUST keep trying again.  I was doing Weight Watchers this last round, but don't think I'll continue tracking and whatnot.  I find I eat the same things every day.  All I need to do is cut out the junk I eat when PMSing (and it would help so much if I could just never PMS again!) and have portion control at supper time, and I WILL lose weight.  My problem isn't not knowing what to do, or eating healthier, cause I do, its just STAYING CONSISTENT with not adding junk to the food I eat (like chips and a candy bar after my peanut butter and honey on wheat sandwich thins lunch), and not eating 3 bowls of supper.  Exercising would help, but that will have to wait until we move.

So, now that I'm done PMSing, its time to try again.


Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Signing with Kaylan

Kaylan is at almost 100 signs!!  So a friend asked me to make a video of her signing :)  here you go!  (I didn't sign any of the signs I asked her to sign, this is all Kaylan :)

Friday, February 11, 2011

I'll never lose weight

I just won't.  I can keep trying, and I WILL keep trying, but I'm pretty doubtful that it'll ever happen.  See, I can't be consistent for more than a week.  I get hungry, I get depressed I can't eat what I want or when I want or especially how much I want.   I eat good foods, I eat bad foods.  I eat too much food.  I stress eat, I happy eat, I bored eat, eat eat eat.  OK I'm starting to sound like Dr Suess's Feet Book....

Anyway.  For another 3 months, I can't exercise either.  See, Ben and I both sleep in the living room.  That's right, the living room.  Him on the mattress on the floor, me on the couch, cause the mattress hurts my back.  Why?  Cause I'm FAT!!  But will that keep me from eating too much?? NO.  But I digress....  So there's no room for me to exercise.  Its WAAAAY too cold to walk outside.  As soon as it hit below 50 in the mornings, my walks had to stop, I kept getting sick.  But if I didn't walk, I didn't get sick.. Hmmm didn't take too long to figure that out.

When we move May 1st (OH what a glorious day that will be!) I can start exercising again, cause we will have our own room and a new mattress and I'll have the living room to myself at 5am.  That will be better, even though I still won't likely be able to stop eating (really wish I could just quit it like I did smoking), it will help cause I'll be moving, my body will be more healthy just by moving.  I'll be able to move easier, breathe easier, sleep easier, think easier, just by exercising in the morning.  Oh Jillian, how I miss you....

But the weight still won't come off.  I just can't be consistent.  I can't convince myself to change, permanently.  But I will keep trying.  I can't just give up, that's not like me.



So this morning Cole asks if I can bring him to school early.  Sure, so long as you actually wash your hair and brush your teeth and be ready by 7.  (He tends to just take a water shower, and I'm not home when he gets out so I can't make him go back in there, and I find out  he didn't wash his hair when I get home from work)  Anyway, so we go on our way, and I see a cop sitting in a parking lot.  I was going a tad bit over.  I start to slow down, but then let the hill take me.  OOPS, there's those lights, right as we pull into the school driveway.  Sigh. 

Its cold, so I start my power windows going down.  The cold makes them go REAALLLY slow.  The cop makes a joke about it.  Really nice officer :)  So I was going about 8 or 9 over, thankfully not enough to get a ticket!  I did get a written warning though.  I jokingly blamed Cole, cause I don't usually take him to school. He didn't think that was very funny, but knew I was kidding.  Cole was properly belted in the front seat (matching the height, weight and age requirements), but I was not.  Amazingly, nothing was said about me not being buckled up. 

Looks like I got off really easy this time!  THIS TIME!!  Will keep better track of the speed limit and my speed from now on......  It's been 5 years since I got a speeding ticket.....  I'd like to never get one again!


Sunday, February 6, 2011

Boredom is time consuming

Almost a year ago, we finally joined the rest of the world using the internet at home, and I promptly joined Facebook.  I found it to be a great boredom buster.  I found friends I hadn't talked to in forever, got to look at tons of pictures, and see what everyone was up to over the years (and randomly throughout the day).  I kept getting these game invites though.  They were really annoying.  Whats the big deal about Farmville?  Ugh.  But... One day... I was BORED.  The house was clean, Kaylan was napping, Cole was off with friends.  Ben was on call or playing his xBox.  No one was talking on Babycenter (another boredom buster)

Soo... I tried Farmville.  Oh hey this is kinda fun.  It'll keep me busy when I'm bored.  Soon after, I was addicted.  NOT neglect your kids addicted, but maybe delay the dishes addicted.  One day, I realized how time consuming it was.  It wasn't just a boredom buster, it was a big time consumer.  My farm got big, it took a while to farm it.  You have to get the crops by a certain time, or they will wither.  Oh whats this, now there are things to build.  And animals to harvest.  And gifts from friends!  I need to help other farms so I can get more stuff.

And so on.  I had to cut back!  I try to only spend a few minutes a day on it now (ok maybe ten).  I have other things to consume my time.  You know, my kids.  My messy home.  So I decided to only be on the internet at home after the kids had gone to bed.  Originally, and supper was thrown in there, but since Kaylan won't sit in the highchair for me, I've stuck with bedtime.  And when I can on the weekends, but Kaylan usually says no.

But about 2 weeks ago... I got bored again... and came on Blogger...............................................


PS: what are YOUR boredom busters?  (turned time consumers?)

New Signing Time!

A while ago, I asked my local email group if anyone had any Signing Time they were able to part with.  Someone sent me this link and when I got my taxes I ordered Series 2 volumes 1-7 for a whopping $37!  Awesome.  Yesterday, they came!  So Kaylan and I spent most of the morning watching them while Daddy slept in :)

We watched 4 of them this morning, learning how to meet and greet people, had a birthday party, learned signs for movements, the alphabet, and counting to 10!  

So I thought I would share the link so people with tighter budgets could still enjoy the benefits of Signing Time too!

Thursday, February 3, 2011

New You 2011!

Weight Goal: 150 (eventually)

- Last week's weight:  232

- This week's weight: 229

- And tell us about what you are doing to reach your goals/how your week has been/ any setbacks, etc?!
Weight Watchers, portion control

What is the main reason that you are wanting to lose weight or get in shape? 

I've been obese for way too long! 

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Mad Scientist Blocks

Ha!  Love what I found on!
Hee hee, we need these for Kaylan so she can follow in her mommies footsteps :)