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Hello!  It's been a while, and I know I said I would keep up on this, but we have been busy at work, and too many other internet things to do when I actually get a moment to get on after Kaylan goes to bed :)

We found a house to rent!  It's an old piece of work, but it has 3 bedrooms, 4 if you count the attic sized but midget doored room on the second floor.  There is a fireplace, an open kitchen, a YARD, and, maybe best of all, the CREEK is in the backyard!  But far enough away that Kaylan shouldn't get close without us right beside her. 

Cole is failing most of his classes.  Big surprise there :/  Really can't wait to try online schooling.  Cole has stated how he feels so demoralized by his teachers (his words) that why should he even bother.  He's excited about online schooling because everything will be right at home where he needs it and harder to get lost/not turned in.  But we have to wait until we move to do the online schooling because there simply isn't any room for the equipment/books/whatnot. 

Kaylan will be 2 in less than a week.  Still NO words.  But she is still learning and using more signs each week.  I haven't been quite keeping up with her progress, but she definitely is progressing.  The other day we were outside and the ball rolled in a puddle.  She signed ball, water, and dirty.  I almost missed it cause she did it slow.  But she did it, a definite spontaneous 3 word sentence!  Further proof that there is nothing "wrong" with her. 

So thats my little update for to tide you over for a bit....

Searching, decisions

I am in the midst of giving up on finding a decent place to live.  We hope to move May 1, our lease is up at the end of May.  But the pickings are slim for 3 bedroom <$900/month within 20 minutes of my work.  Originally we wanted a house or duplex.  Those are very few and very far between for renting.  So we broadened our search, including towns/cities we hadn't considered before and even apartments.  And today I added condos.  I would rather not buy, I don't think I can afford if something goes wrong.  But I think a condo townhouse might be somewhere compromising between a house and an apartment. 

I know we have a month and a half, but I'm getting anxious not knowing if we are going to find a place.  I'm hoping the renting market opens up as spring springs!  We NEED to get out of this place!!!

Sickness

I've been sick.  *Just* a common cold.  But man is it kicking my head.  And my lungs, but mostly my head.  The pressure oh!  My eyes burn.  The gunk in my lungs will move on breathing in, but not coughing out.  If I don't take some medicine, its near unbearable.  If I do, I feel medicated.  Not drowsy, I can handle that, but almost jittery.  But oh well, I must breathe and not feel like my eyes will explode. 

So anyway, no long post about anything in particular, just woe is me.  Time to take some NyQuil and hope to sleep better than last night.  Gotta love winter.....

Sarah-Irene

Try try again...

Yes my last post about weight loss was very.... negative.  I still believe every word.  But again, I won't give up, I can't give up, I MUST keep trying again.  I was doing Weight Watchers this last round, but don't think I'll continue tracking and whatnot.  I find I eat the same things every day.  All I need to do is cut out the junk I eat when PMSing (and it would help so much if I could just never PMS again!) and have portion control at supper time, and I WILL lose weight.  My problem isn't not knowing what to do, or eating healthier, cause I do, its just STAYING CONSISTENT with not adding junk to the food I eat (like chips and a candy bar after my peanut butter and honey on wheat sandwich thins lunch), and not eating 3 bowls of supper.  Exercising would help, but that will have to wait until we move.

So, now that I'm done PMSing, its time to try again.

Sarah-Irene

Signing with Kaylan

Kaylan is at almost 100 signs!!  So a friend asked me to make a video of her signing :)  here you go!  (I didn't sign any of the signs I asked her to sign, this is all Kaylan :)

I'll never lose weight

I just won't.  I can keep trying, and I WILL keep trying, but I'm pretty doubtful that it'll ever happen.  See, I can't be consistent for more than a week.  I get hungry, I get depressed I can't eat what I want or when I want or especially how much I want.   I eat good foods, I eat bad foods.  I eat too much food.  I stress eat, I happy eat, I bored eat, eat eat eat.  OK I'm starting to sound like Dr Suess's Feet Book....

Anyway.  For another 3 months, I can't exercise either.  See, Ben and I both sleep in the living room.  That's right, the living room.  Him on the mattress on the floor, me on the couch, cause the mattress hurts my back.  Why?  Cause I'm FAT!!  But will that keep me from eating too much?? NO.  But I digress....  So there's no room for me to exercise.  Its WAAAAY too cold to walk outside.  As soon as it hit below 50 in the mornings, my walks had to stop, I kept getting sick.  But if I didn't walk, I didn't get sick.. Hmmm didn't take too long to figure that out.

When we move May 1st (OH what a glorious day that will be!) I can start exercising again, cause we will have our own room and a new mattress and I'll have the living room to myself at 5am.  That will be better, even though I still won't likely be able to stop eating (really wish I could just quit it like I did smoking), it will help cause I'll be moving, my body will be more healthy just by moving.  I'll be able to move easier, breathe easier, sleep easier, think easier, just by exercising in the morning.  Oh Jillian, how I miss you....

But the weight still won't come off.  I just can't be consistent.  I can't convince myself to change, permanently.  But I will keep trying.  I can't just give up, that's not like me.

Sarah-Irene 

OOPS!

So this morning Cole asks if I can bring him to school early.  Sure, so long as you actually wash your hair and brush your teeth and be ready by 7.  (He tends to just take a water shower, and I'm not home when he gets out so I can't make him go back in there, and I find out  he didn't wash his hair when I get home from work)  Anyway, so we go on our way, and I see a cop sitting in a parking lot.  I was going a tad bit over.  I start to slow down, but then let the hill take me.  OOPS, there's those lights, right as we pull into the school driveway.  Sigh. 

Its cold, so I start my power windows going down.  The cold makes them go REAALLLY slow.  The cop makes a joke about it.  Really nice officer :)  So I was going about 8 or 9 over, thankfully not enough to get a ticket!  I did get a written warning though.  I jokingly blamed Cole, cause I don't usually take him to school. He didn't think that was very funny, but knew I was kidding.  Cole was properly belted in the front seat (matching the height, weight and age requirements), but I was not.  Amazingly, nothing was said about me not being buckled up. 

Looks like I got off really easy this time!  THIS TIME!!  Will keep better track of the speed limit and my speed from now on......  It's been 5 years since I got a speeding ticket.....  I'd like to never get one again!

Sarah-Irene